What is up with women’s sport socks being so low that my heels get fucked up from my sneakers?
Motivation Gets Me Down
I have a difficult time motivating myself. The sayings and stories sound great but… I don’t know. I have nothing.
This has been my entire life. Some call it “lazy” but when I do do something, I do it quickly and accurately (or ask questions/search Google to get as close as I can).
I can never get enough work but I hate networking. This is one of the reasons I left the entertainment industry. I’d like and need to make a bit more money, just get over this hump. I’m tired of always being stressed and worried. I’ve always suffered from anxiety and depression. This shit just makes it harder to handle.
I have one person I can always go to, my husband. I’m fortunate in that respect, though there are so few others I could turn to. And by “so few others” I really mean “no one,” or it feels that way. Every time I try to tell an ol’ friend about shitty family issues or anything else, it doesn’t feel like they care enough. But these are people I used to be closer with; it’s not like they tell me what’s going on in their lives (besides the basics).
Sometimes, I just need to get things out of me, in a public way. It makes me feel better.
But the motivation never comes. I try to make it happen but there are always things in the way. Go to the gym (or do some activity for exercise)? That would make me feel better. Yet if I had the extra cash, I’d have health insurance. It’s still not affordable. Fuck you, republican politicians.
Every time I hear a sob story about someone dying because they couldn’t afford treatment or surgery, it hits me really hard. I fear that will be me someday. I also feel for the family/friends of that someone.
These things, plus more (I’ve already vented about issues with my mother), continue to bring me down. It’s hard to motivate myself to do much of anything.
This may sound petulant to some, but do bi/pansexual, asexual, trans* people (and/or anyone I didn’t mention) feel left out when seemingly open-minded liberal people talk about “gay and straight”? I mean, it’s nice that you’re trying to be open and welcoming to same sex marriage but it’s not as simple as homosexual or heterosexual. It’s wonderful that people are coming around to homosexuality but what about the rest of us?
Melissa Harris Perry’s show did a thing on gender (and transgender issues) this weekend, so things are getting better. The only person on non-fiction TV (that I’ve noticed) who regularly mentions the terms “bisexual” and “transgender” is Michael Eric Dyson. And that dude needs his own show.
Must. Work. Now.
All of this mother shit is making it hard to work. But I have to finish this.
She already tried to sabotage my business once before. Eric and I had to start from before square one. Maybe like -100?
I must vent, get it out. I will not let her have this effect on me.
This will not define me.
Or bi/pan, transgender, gender queer, asexual and everyone else (sorry if I left someone out).
I hear from trans* people, sometimes family members say they wish they were just gay. WTF?
The “LGBT” doesn’t cover everything but people often forget the B and the T. The A’s, P’s, Q’s, etc are always left out which also sucks. The B and T are right there in the commonly-used initialism. And people even forget them. /rant
If the republican politicians
want control of my uterus, they’re going to have to take it. All of it, every last bit. Only then they can do with it what they choose.
Jokes on them. I fucking hate it.
But until they take my entire uterus, hands off!
There are too many inside jokes on Tumblr.
I’m often lost. :|
Sometimes we don’t agree and that’s OK.
I’m not directing this to anyone specific.
Every had a question for someone who didn’t give you a straight or informative answer? Someone who called you names just for not understanding their initial assertion? I hate that. Most people who I follow on Tumblr give really good answers to questions but not everybody does (whether on Tumblr or anywhere else). Those answers may sometimes be “I don’t know” but the honesty is key.
When you ask for a clarification on something or reasoning behind an answer and you just get called names… By someone who you’d normally get along with on a lot of topics. That shit sucks.
Bad communication sucks.
I hate feeling sick all of the time.
Fuck you IBS or what ever I have that doctors can’t determine.
[Warning: Major rage moment ahead.]
ABC News has also learned that Martin was staying in Sanford at the time because he’d been suspended from Krop High School in Miami after school officials found him with a baggy that they suspected contained marijuana. He was staying at his father’s fiance’s house in Sanford.
Family spokesperson Ryan Julison confirmed to ABC News that Martin was suspended for an “empty baggy that had contained pot.”
WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH ANYTHING?! Are you trying to say that he deserved to die because he got suspended for having AN EMPTY FUCKING BAG that may or my not have had weed in it?!?! THIS IS WHAT YOU PEOPLE ARE SAYING WHEN YOU BRING THIS SHIT UP! YOU ARE TELLING THE WORLD THAT YOU NOW BELIEVE THAT TRAYVON DESERVED TO DIE! FUCK YOU ALL!
Krop High School. That’s the school I would have went to if I was younger. They opened it too later for me. Wow.
The idea that this would matter in the case is beyond me. I also have a story of a good friend (then, not anymore) who was suspended from high school for supposedly having marijuana; she had a Beedi!! It’s tobacco!!
That said, smoking cannabis does not make one a bad person, whether medicinally or recreationally. If anything, it would make one a calmer person.